想

别人笑我太疯癫, 我笑他人看不穿。

不甘平凡? 不敢不平凡?

最近想起从前,
憧憬过的爱情故事。
滥情地写出一篇又一篇的歌词。
现在, 想挑战自己, 再次执笔,
却全然写不出个所以然。
仿佛浪漫的细胞好像泡沫般,
蒸发幻灭不见了。
是人长大了, 不再做梦了,
还是这个世界上,
对我来说,
其它的事务都比爱情来得重要了呢?
总觉得时间好像过多好快,
但是自己想做的事,
却一直被搁置。
当年复一年地过去,
觉得要更加努力去追梦,
生怕自己有朝一日,
心有余而力不足。
以前, 听过一句话,
不甘平凡。
从此, 这变成了我的座右铭,
很希望, 以后, 这成为我的墓志铭。
你呢? 你平凡吗? 甘愿吗?
如果你甘愿, 祝你幸福。
倘若你不甘愿, 就追吧!
人生很短, 很无常, 不要让自己一身怨怠。

胡思乱想

在夜阑人静的夜晚, 如果睡不着, 总不免得会胡思乱想。
回想起近几日, 发生了一些不愉快的事, 胡思乱想了一番, 总觉得这个人存心刁难, 让我头疼不已, 却碍于他是顾客而不能发飙, 简直急得像热锅上的蚂蚁般, 忐忑不安。
也幸亏我有以前的工作经验, 学习了怎么去退一步海阔天空, 终于也能平心静气地谈。
而后, 才发现, 这位客户, 并非刁难, 而是家中发生了大事, 无暇兼顾, 并且对于我感到很抱歉。
当我获知的那一刻, 我发现, 我以小人之心度君子之腹, 并对自己感到十分惭愧。
说真的, 不到最后一刻, 不能罔下定论, 猜忌别人之人,必定也会被算计。
不要在脑里心里留下太多空位去批判别人的作风, 人各有志, 并无全然的对或错。

我最近看了刘德华和鞏丽的电影, 《我知女人心》, 当中有一段, 说道: 要别人的信任和坦诚, 自己必先如此。每个人, 当然, 会有自己不为人知的阴暗面, 有自己的意见, 也是自己的风格, 一味的附和别人反而会迷失自己, 这个点上的平衡, 还要自己斟酌呢。

晚安!

绝处逢生

这个世界, 处处藏生机。
往往, 在你觉得最绝望时, 总会让你不经意发现一线曙光, 就犹如一株小小的植物从水泥地的一点缝隙中, 生长出来, 并绽开艳丽的花朵。
没有什么不可能, 只在乎你要还是不要。不肯放弃, 就是致胜的关键!

晚安!

Bucket List

I have a Bucket List, for those people who have no idea what it is, the show titled Bucket List by Morgan Freeman, is highly recommended. It's a to-do list that you derive that you must fulfill before you kick the bucket.

1) I want to climb a mountain again,  when I was younger, and I had my first taste of the experience, I always wanted to do it again. But at that point of time, it didn't felt that hard at all. Now, physical condition, financial condition, and mental condition have all became obstacles preventing me from doing it. But I'm sure, I will do it again. Before 30 years old of age. And when I do that, I will sit in the mountain, and meditate.

2) I want to drive a convertible. I had a chance to sit in my friend's many a times. And I always wonder how fantastic it must be to be able to let the people closest to me experience the same exhilarating feeling.

3) I want to spend a very leisure week in an European country, experience the cold weather they'd face every year, because the coldest weather in Singapore wouldn't fall below 22deg Celsius.  How nice it is to sip coffee at a roadside cafe and read a book.

4) I want to live in a house at the beach with my best friends and the fundamentals of life. Where simplicity is the key. As discussed, I hope It's Okinawa, as I'm fascinated by the place as it is.

5) I want to publish a book about my life, and it is a bestseller, because of the interesting things that happened to me and people around me.

6) I want to spend my last day watching my last sunset. Location doesn't matter, I just need a great view.

7) I want to sit at the edge of Table Mountain in Capetown, South Africa, and take a great picture. I want to see the actual view rather than the breathtaking photos.

Of course, this list is still expanding, what about you? What's your bucket list?

实现

这个世界很大，一种米养百种人。
每个人都是一个自由个体，都有自己的价值，自己的想法和价值观。
不能够强求别人的想法必定和自己的不尽相同，亦如我们不喜欢别人用他们心中的尺来衡量自己的是非对错一般。
然，每个人存于世上，必须知道自己的目的地是在哪里。 否则，再努力，也不过是像一只老鼠在笼里跑滚轮般，原地踏步，而不自知罢了。其实，寻找人生的目标，也是一门哲学。有些人，必须离开熟悉的环境，流浪异地，赏味世界，方能深深的体验自己的感官，寻获心中的乐园。有些人，奔波劳碌，在夜阑人静中，聆听自己心灵的对话，就能知道自己的价值。
有些人，随波逐流，每天都仿佛没有方向，人云亦云，不肯深思。试问如此，活着与死了埋在地底的尸体有何分别？不过就是会跑会跳会动的活死人罢了，不是吗？
其实，要活的有方向并非想象中困难，重要的是，懂得面对自己。说真的，你可以一辈子躲避着别人的探究，唯一躲避不了的，是自己心中的疑虑与遗憾。
你今天，勇于面对自己了吗？

快乐颂

今天，是一个特别的日子。感觉自己第一次，不像是被人牵着一步步向前走的日子。

有些人喜欢做任何事都公式化，一步一步，都走得仿佛有说明书般。
倘若他们没有规律，就会忐忑不安一样。每一天的规划，计算，都是他们生活的方程式。

而我，偏偏不爱这样子的日子，我很享受被挑战，很喜欢有点被悬空的感觉。因为，这样才会有反差。因为不喜欢规律，所以我的生命中，几乎完全没有秩序。有点乱乱的，反而，是我的特色。

我，今天的主题是，学习爱自己。有些人可能会好奇，以为，爱自己不是理所当然的吗？怎么还需要学习呢？所以，今天的文章，可能是网络上的一小篇，却是我人生的一大步。

我，从小就有很大的自卑感，总觉得自己做什么都不如人，尽管有什么好事发生在自己身上，也绝不可能是因为自己的能力，充其量，也不过自己的时运高罢了。我很怕表露出不开心，因为，会曝露自己的脆弱。所以，总是不论阴或雨，都逼着自己笑脸迎人。久而久之，便成了一幅假面，一层保护色。曾经，我以为我没有了感觉，我对任何人，任何事都是以我认为别人会有的反应去效法。心，犹如被挖空了般。有人告诉我，我很豁达，我嘴上的谢语，其实是我对自己心中的不屑。天塌下来，我当被盖，不是因为不担心，是因为，不痛不痒。甚至，在去年底，有人预言玛雅年历计算，世界末日即将在十二月，二十二日降临，网络上看到世界各地的一些恐慌，我反而觉得，很期待，希望是真实的。然，当我在二十二日的早晨，仍能起床上班时，竟然有些许的失望。

但是，现在，我真正的体会到，为什么有些人，仿佛得天独厚，真的是所谓，人见人爱，车见车载？因为，他们懂得欣赏自己，不会被别人的一言一语动摇自己的信心。说真的，自己应该是这世界上最了解自己的人，如果，自己都不会欣赏自己的优点，那么，还能祈求谁来告诉自己，存在的价值呢？所以，我要活得有价值，第一点，就是要学习爱自己，我会尽力挖掘自己的优点，活得自然，不要以别人为目标，而是以每天爱自己多一些，让自己快乐些，精采些，为我的人生座右铭。

奋斗吧！！ 

人生的乐趣

很多时候，我们这些现代人常常活在忧郁与担忧中，却忘了我们其实生活得衣食无忧。其实，要寻找人生的乐趣并没有想象中困难。

有时候，当我们的步调总在匆匆忙忙的向前冲刺时，学习停下脚步看看蔚蓝的天空，听听风吹虫鸣声，别浪费了身边的良辰美景。走出工作的框框，接触一下大自然，顿时会让人神清气爽一番。

我有个同事最近问我，我是否很开心，我才发现我有这个小习惯，就是哼歌曲。我释才发现，哼一哼歌曲，不管当下是否心情愉快，都会变得轻松许多，当然，哼歌曲只是我抒发压力和放松情绪的方式，不妨试一试。

但是，最好的方案，就是，去一趟旅行。最好是，不曾去过的地方。可以三五成群，与朋友结伴而行，也可以是放逐自己，来个背包之行。何以见得呢？因为旅行能让你看到更大的世界，让自己顿时看待人生的瓶颈的看法，即刻不同，进而放松自己的自我要求。然，并不是说自我要求高不是好事，对自己的要求毕竟是让自己进步的要素。但是不要对自己太苛刻，适时的及时行乐，可以达到豁达的心境，让自己明白，自己心目中什么才是最重要的。

最后，若真的走不开，例如我这般，不如就学习如何对他人要求不要太高。怎么见得呢？人，总有控制欲，想要掌握身边的人与发生的事。但是，若固持己见，不难发现，你唯一能掌握与控制的，仅有自己而已。既然控制不了，倒不如，学习既来之，则安之？ 这样，可能反倒有意想不到的收获呢？

晚安！

Don't live in the past

No matter how gung-ho we could be, the decisions that we make today are  largely due to our experiences in the past. The past made up who we are, today. It's an important part of us.

Sometimes these past experiences could be pleasant,  where it made us more confident, daring to face the obstacles that are to come our way. Whereas some experiences, they are so appalling that we became fearful of every stride we make, afraid that we could be pulled into the pains of past failures.

Nevertheless, in order to be progressing, we need to stop living in the ghost of our past. Yes, sticks and stones, may break my bones, but these sticks and stones are the origin of how earlier cavemen produced fire for the first time, therefore, we can live in the luxuries of having different doneness to our steaks, isn't it?

By living in the past, all that we have to do is sit in one secluded corner and lick our wounds, and it is unlikely to bring about any changes, yet, the weight of past failures will seem heavier than it actually is, the severity of the situations might be magnified to be bigger than they appeared to be. Until one day, we totally forgotten how much dreams and visions we have for our future. While living a life mundane and uninteresting, we start to recall how we were hoping to lead the life of my dreams, but stopped by the 'cruelty of reality', but in actual fact, the only one person who is capable of manipulating your mind, is yourself.

The past, however great or dismaying, is gone and never to return, the future, is yet to be uncovered, live in the present, do what you deemed to be able bring you closer to be the you, you always wanted to be, and don't complain about the cards life dealt you, because to be stronger, you have to endure the hardship of doing what the weaklings can't endure.

Gratitude

I wanted to blog about this for so long, but procrastination always gets the better of me. But, nonetheless, I realised that if you want something hard enough, it is bound to happen, somewhere, some ways, somehow.

It's so important to have a sense of gratitude. It makes one more appreciative about the surrounding. It's so easy to slip into self-pity every now and then. Whenever things goes bad, or when situations get tough for us to carry on, we will start to feel that life is unfair, and that some other people just got it going easier than ourselves. Well, I used to think this way all the time. But all those times that I was 'hanging-on' it seemed like such a struggle, I was merely putting on a false front, hanging on the pretended optimism for dear life, little did I know, so long as I don't learn to enjoy the process of hardship, it will hardly change for the better.

Now, as I start to get acquainted with more people, I start to understand how having a sense of gratitude helps me get better and learn more, at the same time, being able to smile from the bottom of my heart. As I'm writing this, I have a warm fuzzy feeling from within. I'm most grateful to people who were around me during my worst times, and still stayed on till now, my ideology might sometimes be unrealistic and far-fetched, but their encouragement never failed to surround me. They will show me care and concern, they will be tactful to tell me something I insisted on doing might not be the best decisions. They will be relieved when things go better for me, they will show me grimace of agony when things took a turn for worse for me. These are the people who truly cared.
Not only that, I'm grateful for things that happened to me, I wouldn't exactly say I'm a good person, but all those circumstances that occurred around me, situations that happened to me, definitely molded me more and more into the kind of person I desired to become. Of course, this process still has a long way to go, however I just want to express this gratitude at this point of time.

How about you? When was the last time you were grateful for something or toward someone, and expressed this gratitude?