永恒

我们都知道世界没有永恒这件事。
不管是什么人事物都有个期限。
生命亦如此，万般不愿意，世事的这个定律依旧会悄悄地钻进生活的缝隙。
并不是躲起来，不听不看不想就不会发生。

我刚从这年头的第三场丧礼回家。
不甚唏嘘，年前还很硬朗的长辈，因为一场意外失足，不到两个星期，就因此到了另一个世界。
感叹，生命的脆弱。
无奈，身边的人人亦如我一般，无能为力。

人，年纪越大就越难忽视，生老病死的必然。
也思考，人，为生而死……还是，为死而生。

Seriously?

Looking at the works of the 'Anonymous', I am truly disgusted. Really, blaming the govt and doing things that's against the law, to attempt to disturb the equilibrium of the society, to stir the negative emotions of the general public, and assuming the name of Justice? My foot.
Deface MOE website? This crossed the line.
If one has had friends in the civil service, namely, the police force and teaching career, you'd have found out the immense pressure these individuals had to withstand, in order to deliver the jobscope that was stipulated.

This reminded me of autobiographies of the numerous IT experts, such as Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, and Mark Zuckerberg.  These are the people whom chose to make full use of their potential, doing good for the society,  and the reason why we have software to use for our school, work and even organizing our personal lives, the reason for the start of the awesome era of the smart phone making the world smaller amd more accessible and the reason why we can make use of the social media to do business marketing, personal marketing and even just to rant about the random things in our lives.

Now, I despise individuals who prefer to hide in the dark, attempt to step on the line to defame any individual or organization, making it seems like they did it for a higher cause, when in actuality, it was to satisfy their own selfish pride, to seems like they are pitting themselves against the evil. If you're so good, do good. Be a philanthropist,  be a volunteer and teach computer to people who wants to be better, be part of the opposition party and speak up for what you feel is right.

Worse is, seeing people around me, applauding the works of these selfish, egotistical people who tried to take law in their own hands. I am disappointed. If they are so cool, for goodness sake, show your own face, own up to the responsibilities,  not hide behind some stupid white mask, and pretending to be so concerned about these issues, if you dared to.

Now, every society has its fair share of issues, it is up to us as individuals, to accept and move on, to work on the issues and not point fingers to others. I had not been a great history student, however, I do remembered where racial harmony came a long way. A lot of us, our forefathers were immigrants, imagine if they were ostracised, despised and being picked on every steps of their way? Would we have the pink ic and this tiny red dot to call our home?

We, as the moving force of the nation, too pampered, took too many things for granted. To have a lot of world-class reputation, recently, I read that we are one of the safest asian Destination for female travellers, and peacefulness. All these did not came easy,  cherish it.

Gratitude and ampathy are the 2 words kn my mind at this moment,  be thankful for what we have, being able to walk home at night from the train stations knowing that you are pretty much safe. I, sometimes, am guilty of stereotyping too, and not all foreigners are exactly behaving like they have the same culture as us, but hey, if today, you are the one working overseas, and whenever you read a local forum or news, you see someone who's a local badmouthing you or your community, how would you feel? Bad behavior is individual's character, by jumping to conclusion or generalizing, you are not any better either.

光明磊落!

让头脑放空

其实, 小时候在读书时, 我就是一个爱放空的小孩, 只是, 永远都是在不恰当的时候, 就是上课时。并不是睡着, 而是真的发呆。

然, 出了社会后, 发现头脑里总是装载着各式各样大大小小的事, 头脑至睡前一秒, 可能仍然想着工作上的事。并没有一刻可以休息, 发呆, 是一种奢侈。

最近, 我从好朋友那儿获得了一台脚踏车, 今天, 我带着新伙伴, 不带电话, 不带表, 就出发了, 虽然只是在我家的附近骑一骑, 竟意外地发现有这么多好地方在我的周围。当下的感觉是, 如果我没有这一股冲动, 或许不会发现这么一片新天地, 每天都盲目地经过, 却不懂得欣赏它的美好。同时, 也感叹着我们对科技的依赖性, 让电视, 电脑, 电话, 牵着鼻子走, 几乎就错过了这片土地, 这一幕美景。

而前, 每当我在书中读到作者建议人们, 尽量找时间, 享受沉寂, 呼吸大自然, 我都认为, 在这个钢骨水泥森林中, 仿佛天方夜谭, 而今, 才发现, 问题出在自己身上。然而, 迟到好过没到。

别活在面具之下

这是我近来一直听到的嘱咐, 叫我要放开胸怀, 别把什么事都收在心里。老实说: 我也不想的, 每当我看到听到朋友的倾诉, 对我来说, 着实心里浮起了羡慕。毕竟, 把自己的感觉与思维封闭, 已经这么久了。

有时, 觉得自己流于表面, 好虚伪, 却不敢说出自己的感觉与心事, 只是怕叨扰到别人, 认为每个人都有自己要承受的包袱, 何苦让别人为自己忧心呢? 久而久之, 变得不信任。

身边有很多人, 能交心的人却屈指可数, 很可悲, 但我相信很多人亦是如此。但是, 一旦踏出这一步, 相信我自己的价值观与世界观将会有所改变。

现在, 我正努力! 静观其变吧。

晚安! 

找寻乐趣

我真的觉得人类都很喜欢自寻烦恼, 尽管我嘴里这么说, 行动上我与别人没差, 一样喜欢自寻烦恼。

常常会把自己灵魂的一部分放在看台上, 另一部分的灵魂则在人生的舞台上, 看着自己, 企图度量出自己与别人的差别, 却每每对自己失望。失望过境之后, 又对自己的下一个舞台上的对手比较。这样来来回回, 搞得自己心力交悴, 疲惫不已。但, 每个人的起点都不同, 不能总拿自己的第一天与别人的第五天相比, 自然是失望居多。

当然, 我不是说不需要努力奋斗, 就放空头脑不用思考前程, 这样岂不是成了不求上进吗? 对于这样的生活态度, 我是绝对举双脚反对的, 毕竟生命就是需要你去克服一个又一个的难关的。但是, 在生命中几十年的路途, 说真的, 每一个对手也不过是过客, 就犹如我们人类的短暂, 也是这茫茫宇宙, 不起眼的过客罢了。

既然是过客, 何不享受相知的过程。不要让自己活在战火中, 可能会快乐许多。说穿了, 今天的我, 比昨天的我更好了, 就已经不虚此行了, 不是吗?