一步一脚印

这个世界，很大。
而，人，很渺小。
有时候我们眼里觉得极度重要的事物，其实，也不尽然无其不可。
凡事，学会豁达一些些，可能就看到自己被自己的执着所遮蔽了的盲点。
什么事，都要循序渐进，不可操之过急。否则，可就轻易地乱了自己的阵脚。我坚信，只要还尚存信念，难关总能冲破。
有时候，放慢了脚步可能就会看到另一番不一样的美景，体会到更深刻的人与人之间的交流。这，绝对有助于培养你的耐心，甚至学习到感恩。当你明白别人的好意与帮助并不是必然的时候，你会更加的庆幸自己感受到身边这么多的善意，并且警惕自己，若有机会，定要向另一个人伸出援手，把这份善意延续下去。
我们没办法控制别人要做个怎样的人，别人是否雪中送炭抑或咄咄逼人，然，我们唯一能控制的是，自己。你想做个怎样的人呢？ 我希望可以为身边的人付出，是否有回报，不是很重要，因为我享受这过程，当下的我，是自愿的，是开心的。
年前，有位同学问过我，如果有这么一天，你和朋友，必需死一个，你会怎么选择，当年，我希望我死好了，当时的我，心有怨怠，不快乐，所以也不想呆在这个世界太久。今天，我仍然会做同样的选择，不是因为我讨厌活着，而是因为我想像中的自己绝不想别人为了我的存活而死亡，这样，我会痛恨我自己的自私。

你呢？会如何抉择？

好人

我一直都相信，这个世界没有全然的好人和坏人，每个人总有他的优缺点。对我来说，做一个好人很累，有太多的事要做，却未必做得到。压力太大，就不相信自己可以做的到。
然而，我刚刚看了<On Call 36 小时2> 的第28集，很有启发。这个世界有很多我们所不能控制的因素，很多城市人都太自私，太冷漠，太绝望，太负面，然，我要尝试做一株跳舞兰，为身边的人带来希望和温暖，不想等到临终前才发现并没有做到自己想自己成为的那种人。
可能要吃亏，可能，比较辛苦，可能真的要做比较多，但是，可以让自己喜欢自己也是一种幸福，不是吗？
说真的，我很感恩，我身边有很多人，是我生命中的天使，不求回报的对待我，为我做很多事，为我操劳，所以，我想要变成别人的天使，守护着身边的人的笑容与快乐。
活了这么久，也自私够了，是时候也为身边的人付出了。我不知道往后就要怎么走，也不晓得应该怎样去改变，不过，我知道，我要做一个为别人带来笑容的好人。
晚安！

谦虚

学会谦虚是种美德。
当然，不是降低自己去抬高别人。
那，是虚伪，也可能是自卑。
因为，我认为，懂得谦卑是真正有自信的人才有办法做到的事。

但是，有些人可能会认为，我，有真材实料，何必怕被别人知道，何必宛拒别人的赞誉呢？但是都有两面，就好像我们都会认识一些人，他们真的很厉害，很成功，但是绝对不是最受欢迎的那一位，何以如此呢？因为他的自信与傲气让人很难与之相处，仿佛世界只有他最聪明，而人啊，总不喜欢让自己一直处于下风。而，人与人之间的距离正在逐渐缩短，正如我们不是以一个个体存活在这世上，谦虚会让人对你产生好感，因而，甚么难题，都比较容易迎刃而解。

共勉之。

永恒

我们都知道世界没有永恒这件事。
不管是什么人事物都有个期限。
生命亦如此，万般不愿意，世事的这个定律依旧会悄悄地钻进生活的缝隙。
并不是躲起来，不听不看不想就不会发生。

我刚从这年头的第三场丧礼回家。
不甚唏嘘，年前还很硬朗的长辈，因为一场意外失足，不到两个星期，就因此到了另一个世界。
感叹，生命的脆弱。
无奈，身边的人人亦如我一般，无能为力。

人，年纪越大就越难忽视，生老病死的必然。
也思考，人，为生而死……还是，为死而生。

Seriously?

Looking at the works of the 'Anonymous', I am truly disgusted. Really, blaming the govt and doing things that's against the law, to attempt to disturb the equilibrium of the society, to stir the negative emotions of the general public, and assuming the name of Justice? My foot.
Deface MOE website? This crossed the line.
If one has had friends in the civil service, namely, the police force and teaching career, you'd have found out the immense pressure these individuals had to withstand, in order to deliver the jobscope that was stipulated.

This reminded me of autobiographies of the numerous IT experts, such as Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, and Mark Zuckerberg.  These are the people whom chose to make full use of their potential, doing good for the society,  and the reason why we have software to use for our school, work and even organizing our personal lives, the reason for the start of the awesome era of the smart phone making the world smaller amd more accessible and the reason why we can make use of the social media to do business marketing, personal marketing and even just to rant about the random things in our lives.

Now, I despise individuals who prefer to hide in the dark, attempt to step on the line to defame any individual or organization, making it seems like they did it for a higher cause, when in actuality, it was to satisfy their own selfish pride, to seems like they are pitting themselves against the evil. If you're so good, do good. Be a philanthropist,  be a volunteer and teach computer to people who wants to be better, be part of the opposition party and speak up for what you feel is right.

Worse is, seeing people around me, applauding the works of these selfish, egotistical people who tried to take law in their own hands. I am disappointed. If they are so cool, for goodness sake, show your own face, own up to the responsibilities,  not hide behind some stupid white mask, and pretending to be so concerned about these issues, if you dared to.

Now, every society has its fair share of issues, it is up to us as individuals, to accept and move on, to work on the issues and not point fingers to others. I had not been a great history student, however, I do remembered where racial harmony came a long way. A lot of us, our forefathers were immigrants, imagine if they were ostracised, despised and being picked on every steps of their way? Would we have the pink ic and this tiny red dot to call our home?

We, as the moving force of the nation, too pampered, took too many things for granted. To have a lot of world-class reputation, recently, I read that we are one of the safest asian Destination for female travellers, and peacefulness. All these did not came easy,  cherish it.

Gratitude and ampathy are the 2 words kn my mind at this moment,  be thankful for what we have, being able to walk home at night from the train stations knowing that you are pretty much safe. I, sometimes, am guilty of stereotyping too, and not all foreigners are exactly behaving like they have the same culture as us, but hey, if today, you are the one working overseas, and whenever you read a local forum or news, you see someone who's a local badmouthing you or your community, how would you feel? Bad behavior is individual's character, by jumping to conclusion or generalizing, you are not any better either.

光明磊落!

让头脑放空

其实, 小时候在读书时, 我就是一个爱放空的小孩, 只是, 永远都是在不恰当的时候, 就是上课时。并不是睡着, 而是真的发呆。

然, 出了社会后, 发现头脑里总是装载着各式各样大大小小的事, 头脑至睡前一秒, 可能仍然想着工作上的事。并没有一刻可以休息, 发呆, 是一种奢侈。

最近, 我从好朋友那儿获得了一台脚踏车, 今天, 我带着新伙伴, 不带电话, 不带表, 就出发了, 虽然只是在我家的附近骑一骑, 竟意外地发现有这么多好地方在我的周围。当下的感觉是, 如果我没有这一股冲动, 或许不会发现这么一片新天地, 每天都盲目地经过, 却不懂得欣赏它的美好。同时, 也感叹着我们对科技的依赖性, 让电视, 电脑, 电话, 牵着鼻子走, 几乎就错过了这片土地, 这一幕美景。

而前, 每当我在书中读到作者建议人们, 尽量找时间, 享受沉寂, 呼吸大自然, 我都认为, 在这个钢骨水泥森林中, 仿佛天方夜谭, 而今, 才发现, 问题出在自己身上。然而, 迟到好过没到。

别活在面具之下

这是我近来一直听到的嘱咐, 叫我要放开胸怀, 别把什么事都收在心里。老实说: 我也不想的, 每当我看到听到朋友的倾诉, 对我来说, 着实心里浮起了羡慕。毕竟, 把自己的感觉与思维封闭, 已经这么久了。

有时, 觉得自己流于表面, 好虚伪, 却不敢说出自己的感觉与心事, 只是怕叨扰到别人, 认为每个人都有自己要承受的包袱, 何苦让别人为自己忧心呢? 久而久之, 变得不信任。

身边有很多人, 能交心的人却屈指可数, 很可悲, 但我相信很多人亦是如此。但是, 一旦踏出这一步, 相信我自己的价值观与世界观将会有所改变。

现在, 我正努力! 静观其变吧。

晚安! 

找寻乐趣

我真的觉得人类都很喜欢自寻烦恼, 尽管我嘴里这么说, 行动上我与别人没差, 一样喜欢自寻烦恼。

常常会把自己灵魂的一部分放在看台上, 另一部分的灵魂则在人生的舞台上, 看着自己, 企图度量出自己与别人的差别, 却每每对自己失望。失望过境之后, 又对自己的下一个舞台上的对手比较。这样来来回回, 搞得自己心力交悴, 疲惫不已。但, 每个人的起点都不同, 不能总拿自己的第一天与别人的第五天相比, 自然是失望居多。

当然, 我不是说不需要努力奋斗, 就放空头脑不用思考前程, 这样岂不是成了不求上进吗? 对于这样的生活态度, 我是绝对举双脚反对的, 毕竟生命就是需要你去克服一个又一个的难关的。但是, 在生命中几十年的路途, 说真的, 每一个对手也不过是过客, 就犹如我们人类的短暂, 也是这茫茫宇宙, 不起眼的过客罢了。

既然是过客, 何不享受相知的过程。不要让自己活在战火中, 可能会快乐许多。说穿了, 今天的我, 比昨天的我更好了, 就已经不虚此行了, 不是吗?

Don't live a deluded life...

I looked back and am appalled by the number of times I've let things slide past my control and didn't stop them.
I sat and asked myself as I'm typing this: why are you afraid of? A resounding phrase rang in my head, the fear of failure. And I thought all those motivational self-help books, movies, video clips & audiotapes were supposed to have made me a better person.
I had sat down and reflected on this past 27 years and realised I had not moved on to my future. All I've ever did was to sit in my shadow and lamenting on the loss of opportunities, which ain't going to change a single thing that has happened. It is a painful process, but I guess I needed this wake-up call, very much more than I thought I needed.
I want to make it.
I want to be an entrepreneur. 
I want to live my dream.
I want to bring my parents for holidays.
I want the freedom to do things I want to do.

I was listening to an audiotape by Brian Tracy today, and I realised ever since I left my previous job, where enthusiasm was a prerequisite,  I had forgot what its like to wake up and smile at myself in the mirror, and announce to myself, that this is going to be a great day! I am going to do that every single day from now onwards.  I am going to keep remembering the reasons to strive for my success even when no one is there to remind me.

Keep looking and moving forward, be genuinely happy and keep a servant mentality, to bring goodness to people around me.

Honestly, the corporate world and reality is harsh enough, I do not want myself to conform to social standards and be another skeptic out there. I want to be an idealist, be a dream weaver, and stand firm on my own ideals.

Stop all the excuses that I gave myself. Remember my motto: the harder you work, the luckier you get.

Cheers!

意想不到

Sometimes, a simple belief goes a long way. A lot of times, I realised, when you want something so much its heartbreaking to find that its not happening to/for you. And then, you try harder, and harder, but nothing seems to fall in the right places. And you started being desperate,  started harbouring self-doubts and what-have-yous.

It helps to learn how to quieten down the noises and self deprecating comments in your mind. One must be able to tell himself/herself to believe. A simple enough theory, which one might tends to overlook. But belief? What to believe in? Well, in my humble opinion, it is, learning to believe that by doing the right things over and over again, things will start to fall in the right places before you even realise.

I would say I had been in my drought period for quite a long time, desperation drove me weary, but alas, I've never thought of stopping the battle against the old me. I always thought I could be better, instead of resigning to the fate that I'm probably just another person, destined to live in regrets of the things I wanted to do, but stopped by the me that was too skeptical to believe that I deserved goodness in life.

Dreams are impractical, if no actions were executed. Thats why I vowed to turn all my dreams into my aspirations, taking baby steps towards becoming the person I want to be.

Even when sometimes, the path in front of you may be heavy with mist, so long as you know where you're headed, the GPS in your heart, will bring you to where you want. I believe.

So, what are your dreams?

想

别人笑我太疯癫, 我笑他人看不穿。

不甘平凡? 不敢不平凡?

最近想起从前,
憧憬过的爱情故事。
滥情地写出一篇又一篇的歌词。
现在, 想挑战自己, 再次执笔,
却全然写不出个所以然。
仿佛浪漫的细胞好像泡沫般,
蒸发幻灭不见了。
是人长大了, 不再做梦了,
还是这个世界上,
对我来说,
其它的事务都比爱情来得重要了呢?
总觉得时间好像过多好快,
但是自己想做的事,
却一直被搁置。
当年复一年地过去,
觉得要更加努力去追梦,
生怕自己有朝一日,
心有余而力不足。
以前, 听过一句话,
不甘平凡。
从此, 这变成了我的座右铭,
很希望, 以后, 这成为我的墓志铭。
你呢? 你平凡吗? 甘愿吗?
如果你甘愿, 祝你幸福。
倘若你不甘愿, 就追吧!
人生很短, 很无常, 不要让自己一身怨怠。

胡思乱想

在夜阑人静的夜晚, 如果睡不着, 总不免得会胡思乱想。
回想起近几日, 发生了一些不愉快的事, 胡思乱想了一番, 总觉得这个人存心刁难, 让我头疼不已, 却碍于他是顾客而不能发飙, 简直急得像热锅上的蚂蚁般, 忐忑不安。
也幸亏我有以前的工作经验, 学习了怎么去退一步海阔天空, 终于也能平心静气地谈。
而后, 才发现, 这位客户, 并非刁难, 而是家中发生了大事, 无暇兼顾, 并且对于我感到很抱歉。
当我获知的那一刻, 我发现, 我以小人之心度君子之腹, 并对自己感到十分惭愧。
说真的, 不到最后一刻, 不能罔下定论, 猜忌别人之人,必定也会被算计。
不要在脑里心里留下太多空位去批判别人的作风, 人各有志, 并无全然的对或错。

我最近看了刘德华和鞏丽的电影, 《我知女人心》, 当中有一段, 说道: 要别人的信任和坦诚, 自己必先如此。每个人, 当然, 会有自己不为人知的阴暗面, 有自己的意见, 也是自己的风格, 一味的附和别人反而会迷失自己, 这个点上的平衡, 还要自己斟酌呢。

晚安!

绝处逢生

这个世界, 处处藏生机。
往往, 在你觉得最绝望时, 总会让你不经意发现一线曙光, 就犹如一株小小的植物从水泥地的一点缝隙中, 生长出来, 并绽开艳丽的花朵。
没有什么不可能, 只在乎你要还是不要。不肯放弃, 就是致胜的关键!

晚安!

Bucket List

I have a Bucket List, for those people who have no idea what it is, the show titled Bucket List by Morgan Freeman, is highly recommended. It's a to-do list that you derive that you must fulfill before you kick the bucket.

1) I want to climb a mountain again,  when I was younger, and I had my first taste of the experience, I always wanted to do it again. But at that point of time, it didn't felt that hard at all. Now, physical condition, financial condition, and mental condition have all became obstacles preventing me from doing it. But I'm sure, I will do it again. Before 30 years old of age. And when I do that, I will sit in the mountain, and meditate.

2) I want to drive a convertible. I had a chance to sit in my friend's many a times. And I always wonder how fantastic it must be to be able to let the people closest to me experience the same exhilarating feeling.

3) I want to spend a very leisure week in an European country, experience the cold weather they'd face every year, because the coldest weather in Singapore wouldn't fall below 22deg Celsius.  How nice it is to sip coffee at a roadside cafe and read a book.

4) I want to live in a house at the beach with my best friends and the fundamentals of life. Where simplicity is the key. As discussed, I hope It's Okinawa, as I'm fascinated by the place as it is.

5) I want to publish a book about my life, and it is a bestseller, because of the interesting things that happened to me and people around me.

6) I want to spend my last day watching my last sunset. Location doesn't matter, I just need a great view.

7) I want to sit at the edge of Table Mountain in Capetown, South Africa, and take a great picture. I want to see the actual view rather than the breathtaking photos.

Of course, this list is still expanding, what about you? What's your bucket list?

实现

这个世界很大，一种米养百种人。
每个人都是一个自由个体，都有自己的价值，自己的想法和价值观。
不能够强求别人的想法必定和自己的不尽相同，亦如我们不喜欢别人用他们心中的尺来衡量自己的是非对错一般。
然，每个人存于世上，必须知道自己的目的地是在哪里。 否则，再努力，也不过是像一只老鼠在笼里跑滚轮般，原地踏步，而不自知罢了。其实，寻找人生的目标，也是一门哲学。有些人，必须离开熟悉的环境，流浪异地，赏味世界，方能深深的体验自己的感官，寻获心中的乐园。有些人，奔波劳碌，在夜阑人静中，聆听自己心灵的对话，就能知道自己的价值。
有些人，随波逐流，每天都仿佛没有方向，人云亦云，不肯深思。试问如此，活着与死了埋在地底的尸体有何分别？不过就是会跑会跳会动的活死人罢了，不是吗？
其实，要活的有方向并非想象中困难，重要的是，懂得面对自己。说真的，你可以一辈子躲避着别人的探究，唯一躲避不了的，是自己心中的疑虑与遗憾。
你今天，勇于面对自己了吗？

快乐颂

今天，是一个特别的日子。感觉自己第一次，不像是被人牵着一步步向前走的日子。

有些人喜欢做任何事都公式化，一步一步，都走得仿佛有说明书般。
倘若他们没有规律，就会忐忑不安一样。每一天的规划，计算，都是他们生活的方程式。

而我，偏偏不爱这样子的日子，我很享受被挑战，很喜欢有点被悬空的感觉。因为，这样才会有反差。因为不喜欢规律，所以我的生命中，几乎完全没有秩序。有点乱乱的，反而，是我的特色。

我，今天的主题是，学习爱自己。有些人可能会好奇，以为，爱自己不是理所当然的吗？怎么还需要学习呢？所以，今天的文章，可能是网络上的一小篇，却是我人生的一大步。

我，从小就有很大的自卑感，总觉得自己做什么都不如人，尽管有什么好事发生在自己身上，也绝不可能是因为自己的能力，充其量，也不过自己的时运高罢了。我很怕表露出不开心，因为，会曝露自己的脆弱。所以，总是不论阴或雨，都逼着自己笑脸迎人。久而久之，便成了一幅假面，一层保护色。曾经，我以为我没有了感觉，我对任何人，任何事都是以我认为别人会有的反应去效法。心，犹如被挖空了般。有人告诉我，我很豁达，我嘴上的谢语，其实是我对自己心中的不屑。天塌下来，我当被盖，不是因为不担心，是因为，不痛不痒。甚至，在去年底，有人预言玛雅年历计算，世界末日即将在十二月，二十二日降临，网络上看到世界各地的一些恐慌，我反而觉得，很期待，希望是真实的。然，当我在二十二日的早晨，仍能起床上班时，竟然有些许的失望。

但是，现在，我真正的体会到，为什么有些人，仿佛得天独厚，真的是所谓，人见人爱，车见车载？因为，他们懂得欣赏自己，不会被别人的一言一语动摇自己的信心。说真的，自己应该是这世界上最了解自己的人，如果，自己都不会欣赏自己的优点，那么，还能祈求谁来告诉自己，存在的价值呢？所以，我要活得有价值，第一点，就是要学习爱自己，我会尽力挖掘自己的优点，活得自然，不要以别人为目标，而是以每天爱自己多一些，让自己快乐些，精采些，为我的人生座右铭。

奋斗吧！！ 

人生的乐趣

很多时候，我们这些现代人常常活在忧郁与担忧中，却忘了我们其实生活得衣食无忧。其实，要寻找人生的乐趣并没有想象中困难。

有时候，当我们的步调总在匆匆忙忙的向前冲刺时，学习停下脚步看看蔚蓝的天空，听听风吹虫鸣声，别浪费了身边的良辰美景。走出工作的框框，接触一下大自然，顿时会让人神清气爽一番。

我有个同事最近问我，我是否很开心，我才发现我有这个小习惯，就是哼歌曲。我释才发现，哼一哼歌曲，不管当下是否心情愉快，都会变得轻松许多，当然，哼歌曲只是我抒发压力和放松情绪的方式，不妨试一试。

但是，最好的方案，就是，去一趟旅行。最好是，不曾去过的地方。可以三五成群，与朋友结伴而行，也可以是放逐自己，来个背包之行。何以见得呢？因为旅行能让你看到更大的世界，让自己顿时看待人生的瓶颈的看法，即刻不同，进而放松自己的自我要求。然，并不是说自我要求高不是好事，对自己的要求毕竟是让自己进步的要素。但是不要对自己太苛刻，适时的及时行乐，可以达到豁达的心境，让自己明白，自己心目中什么才是最重要的。

最后，若真的走不开，例如我这般，不如就学习如何对他人要求不要太高。怎么见得呢？人，总有控制欲，想要掌握身边的人与发生的事。但是，若固持己见，不难发现，你唯一能掌握与控制的，仅有自己而已。既然控制不了，倒不如，学习既来之，则安之？ 这样，可能反倒有意想不到的收获呢？

晚安！

Don't live in the past

No matter how gung-ho we could be, the decisions that we make today are  largely due to our experiences in the past. The past made up who we are, today. It's an important part of us.

Sometimes these past experiences could be pleasant,  where it made us more confident, daring to face the obstacles that are to come our way. Whereas some experiences, they are so appalling that we became fearful of every stride we make, afraid that we could be pulled into the pains of past failures.

Nevertheless, in order to be progressing, we need to stop living in the ghost of our past. Yes, sticks and stones, may break my bones, but these sticks and stones are the origin of how earlier cavemen produced fire for the first time, therefore, we can live in the luxuries of having different doneness to our steaks, isn't it?

By living in the past, all that we have to do is sit in one secluded corner and lick our wounds, and it is unlikely to bring about any changes, yet, the weight of past failures will seem heavier than it actually is, the severity of the situations might be magnified to be bigger than they appeared to be. Until one day, we totally forgotten how much dreams and visions we have for our future. While living a life mundane and uninteresting, we start to recall how we were hoping to lead the life of my dreams, but stopped by the 'cruelty of reality', but in actual fact, the only one person who is capable of manipulating your mind, is yourself.

The past, however great or dismaying, is gone and never to return, the future, is yet to be uncovered, live in the present, do what you deemed to be able bring you closer to be the you, you always wanted to be, and don't complain about the cards life dealt you, because to be stronger, you have to endure the hardship of doing what the weaklings can't endure.

Gratitude

I wanted to blog about this for so long, but procrastination always gets the better of me. But, nonetheless, I realised that if you want something hard enough, it is bound to happen, somewhere, some ways, somehow.

It's so important to have a sense of gratitude. It makes one more appreciative about the surrounding. It's so easy to slip into self-pity every now and then. Whenever things goes bad, or when situations get tough for us to carry on, we will start to feel that life is unfair, and that some other people just got it going easier than ourselves. Well, I used to think this way all the time. But all those times that I was 'hanging-on' it seemed like such a struggle, I was merely putting on a false front, hanging on the pretended optimism for dear life, little did I know, so long as I don't learn to enjoy the process of hardship, it will hardly change for the better.

Now, as I start to get acquainted with more people, I start to understand how having a sense of gratitude helps me get better and learn more, at the same time, being able to smile from the bottom of my heart. As I'm writing this, I have a warm fuzzy feeling from within. I'm most grateful to people who were around me during my worst times, and still stayed on till now, my ideology might sometimes be unrealistic and far-fetched, but their encouragement never failed to surround me. They will show me care and concern, they will be tactful to tell me something I insisted on doing might not be the best decisions. They will be relieved when things go better for me, they will show me grimace of agony when things took a turn for worse for me. These are the people who truly cared.
Not only that, I'm grateful for things that happened to me, I wouldn't exactly say I'm a good person, but all those circumstances that occurred around me, situations that happened to me, definitely molded me more and more into the kind of person I desired to become. Of course, this process still has a long way to go, however I just want to express this gratitude at this point of time.

How about you? When was the last time you were grateful for something or toward someone, and expressed this gratitude?

The Game

I've just finished reading The Game by Neil Strauss. 
It was indeed an intriguing read. I've had male friends who wanted to read the book and countered by female who expressed their distaste for it. This, was reason enough for me to be curious about what kind of book would it be, the kind of message it was trying to bring across. 
Well, the moment I started reading it, it had my eyes glued to my Tablet for the past 2 days, every moment I took my Tablet out, was to open my e-book app and continue reading. 
I had to say, the scornful looks from my lady friends were uncalled for. It was a book of self-discovery. 
And I'm not talking about the Pick-up Artists skill-set, of course. 
But when one lived in their own perceived reality, where every single step were rehearsed and pre-planned, one will start to lose themselves, and their spontaneity. We are who we are because of our emotions and our reactions, if every single chain of thoughts and actions are a replica of someone else, I supposed, the authenticity in human interactions would have been lost, isn't it?

I've known a specific individual, he modelled himself upon a mentor so much that he had not only mastered his chain of thoughts, he even copied the mannerisms, I was in the same shoes, I wanted to do the same, because the mentor was massively successful, However, when I got to know the mentor better, I realised, the reasons for his being successful was due to his creativity, his dynamic characteristics and his spontaneity to go out try something new all the time, I guess these are the traits of an entrepreneur, and the topics and interests of him always change. And sad to say, the said individual, only managed to copy a small part of all these, the assertive and competitive nature, and democratic anarchy. 

my first

I'm an aspiring writer, who yearns to publish a book in the near future. I have another blog to write about things I want to publish, and here, are the things I prefer to remain as my more emotional side.

I just watched a show, saw the bickering scenes between a couple, the sweet moments, and I realised, something as simple as smsing to and fro, that's nothing to do with work, has been really missing from my life for a while.

My cousin/colleague, asked me, do I plan to look for someone in my life, and I told her I Don't have plans for stuffs like these. But seriously, I simply don't think I'll be able to, to find another half to fill the void in my life.

I always see nice places, read nice books, watched nice shows, and imagined myself sharing these with another person, but it just doesn't seem to happen. Perhaps,I'm just introverted, and keep things to myself too much, lacking the courage to tell another person that I have the hots for her. So, I do deserve being alone all these whiles.

All I want to do, is to make another person, the happiest person in on earth. Maybe, I should socialized more, if I can go pass my own laziness, that is.