Don't live a deluded life...

I looked back and am appalled by the number of times I've let things slide past my control and didn't stop them.
I sat and asked myself as I'm typing this: why are you afraid of? A resounding phrase rang in my head, the fear of failure. And I thought all those motivational self-help books, movies, video clips & audiotapes were supposed to have made me a better person.
I had sat down and reflected on this past 27 years and realised I had not moved on to my future. All I've ever did was to sit in my shadow and lamenting on the loss of opportunities, which ain't going to change a single thing that has happened. It is a painful process, but I guess I needed this wake-up call, very much more than I thought I needed.
I want to make it.
I want to be an entrepreneur. 
I want to live my dream.
I want to bring my parents for holidays.
I want the freedom to do things I want to do.

I was listening to an audiotape by Brian Tracy today, and I realised ever since I left my previous job, where enthusiasm was a prerequisite,  I had forgot what its like to wake up and smile at myself in the mirror, and announce to myself, that this is going to be a great day! I am going to do that every single day from now onwards.  I am going to keep remembering the reasons to strive for my success even when no one is there to remind me.

Keep looking and moving forward, be genuinely happy and keep a servant mentality, to bring goodness to people around me.

Honestly, the corporate world and reality is harsh enough, I do not want myself to conform to social standards and be another skeptic out there. I want to be an idealist, be a dream weaver, and stand firm on my own ideals.

Stop all the excuses that I gave myself. Remember my motto: the harder you work, the luckier you get.

Cheers!

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Sometimes, a simple belief goes a long way. A lot of times, I realised, when you want something so much its heartbreaking to find that its not happening to/for you. And then, you try harder, and harder, but nothing seems to fall in the right places. And you started being desperate,  started harbouring self-doubts and what-have-yous.

It helps to learn how to quieten down the noises and self deprecating comments in your mind. One must be able to tell himself/herself to believe. A simple enough theory, which one might tends to overlook. But belief? What to believe in? Well, in my humble opinion, it is, learning to believe that by doing the right things over and over again, things will start to fall in the right places before you even realise.

I would say I had been in my drought period for quite a long time, desperation drove me weary, but alas, I've never thought of stopping the battle against the old me. I always thought I could be better, instead of resigning to the fate that I'm probably just another person, destined to live in regrets of the things I wanted to do, but stopped by the me that was too skeptical to believe that I deserved goodness in life.

Dreams are impractical, if no actions were executed. Thats why I vowed to turn all my dreams into my aspirations, taking baby steps towards becoming the person I want to be.

Even when sometimes, the path in front of you may be heavy with mist, so long as you know where you're headed, the GPS in your heart, will bring you to where you want. I believe.

So, what are your dreams?