Don't live a deluded life...

I looked back and am appalled by the number of times I've let things slide past my control and didn't stop them.
I sat and asked myself as I'm typing this: why are you afraid of? A resounding phrase rang in my head, the fear of failure. And I thought all those motivational self-help books, movies, video clips & audiotapes were supposed to have made me a better person.
I had sat down and reflected on this past 27 years and realised I had not moved on to my future. All I've ever did was to sit in my shadow and lamenting on the loss of opportunities, which ain't going to change a single thing that has happened. It is a painful process, but I guess I needed this wake-up call, very much more than I thought I needed.
I want to make it.
I want to be an entrepreneur. 
I want to live my dream.
I want to bring my parents for holidays.
I want the freedom to do things I want to do.

I was listening to an audiotape by Brian Tracy today, and I realised ever since I left my previous job, where enthusiasm was a prerequisite,  I had forgot what its like to wake up and smile at myself in the mirror, and announce to myself, that this is going to be a great day! I am going to do that every single day from now onwards.  I am going to keep remembering the reasons to strive for my success even when no one is there to remind me.

Keep looking and moving forward, be genuinely happy and keep a servant mentality, to bring goodness to people around me.

Honestly, the corporate world and reality is harsh enough, I do not want myself to conform to social standards and be another skeptic out there. I want to be an idealist, be a dream weaver, and stand firm on my own ideals.

Stop all the excuses that I gave myself. Remember my motto: the harder you work, the luckier you get.

Cheers!