珍惜

其实, 不久之前, 我真正感觉到一些自己的变化。我, 总是把东西看成理所当然的, 反正, 船到桥头,自然就直了, 即来之, 则安之嘛。犯不着为无法控制的事物烦恼。
我尽管如此说, 但是, 茅盾的是, 我是个死脑筋, 嘴上说着要欢迎挑战, 用正面的态度去面对变化, 但是, 骨子里, 我很讨厌改变, 讨厌沧海桑田, 讨厌物是人非, 觉得它打乱了我的全盘计划, 虽然我不怎么去规划与设计我的人生。

However, the recent event has caused me to really run through the happenings in my mind. And I found the word 'Cherish'. Every thing happens for a reason. All the ups and downs in my life has molded me into the kind of person I am today. For which, I'm thankful,  now I have a truckload of different experiences, and hopefully, a better personality. And, I went through a paradigm shift, my priorities are so different from five years ago, when I was angry, frustrated, dissatisfied, and very quick to put the blame on the situations rather than myself.
I feel that I am a much happier person, more forgiving, less judgemental. I used to think I'm a very practical and materialistic person, fast cars, nice place to stay, luxurious holidays are what I yearn for. And then I realised now, I only want a short camping trip with a nice campfire, sleeping in hammock, chilling with my awesome friends. And I dont think I came to that because I compromised my ideals, because it was easier, but it is what makes me smile. (And trust me, it's not easier to find friends who are willing to do this with you, given that we live in such an urban forest.)
I realise that I'm really just a simple person, happy to live the simpler life, and there's nothing wrong with it. (Damn! It feels good to say it out loud!) And of course, it's no wrong to want to live the high life, some people are destined for greatness, and to make a difference for people who crossed their paths, of which, I'm glad to have met a few of them in my life, they are definitely catalysts of my journey thus far.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, be authentic. You are who you are today because what you were doing yesterday. Life is pretty fair in the sense that it is impartial,  takes away something, gives you back another. There's no need to be ashamed of who you are, who you were, your thoughts even if it deviated from the common path.

Honestly, I don't know if I do have any reader(s), but I hope this helps you as much as my revelation helped me. Cheers!